Hope Filled Mom

So last week I was terrible with this weight loss journey, I had flash backs thinking I was going to end up where I had been before, not going to meetings and not working out. So I didn’t go to weight watchers and I did not work out at all last week and I was anxious ALL week, it was crazy.

But today I went to Weight Watchers and I had lost 0.4 pounds, yay, and tomorrow I am working out first thing in the morning. I even bought some new music for my ipod to help get me motivated, and it worked! I can’t wait to jam and burn some mega calories tomorrow, I am looking forward to it. I may even dream about my workout tonight. LOL!

I also have anew favorite cardio machine and every time I push myself to the next level I almost burst into tears because I am so proud of myself. I get tired but I keep going. This weight loss journey isn’t going to just change my outward appearance but it is changing me on the inside, it is building my character and I think that’s what God wants most. He is using this situation to help make me stronger and more disciplined.

My new saying - never give up. I think about what it would mean to give up in every area of my life and then I think giving up shouldn’t even be an option. I don’t think I have ever felt so motivated to lose this weight in my entire life. Every time I go back and do what I need to do I am getting back up.

Feels really good. Now time for me to go to bed because tomorrow I have a booty to work off! LOL!

Well the past week has been so busy, and next week doesn’t seem to be any better. I have been attending a training for a local crisis pregnancy center and it has been SO emotionally draining, seriously. Not sure how well I am going to do in the room actually counseling a girl who is in a crisis pregnancy situation, but I am leaning on God for that kind of guidance. I am not sure I will volunteer and much as I had thought because it does take a toll on your personal emotions.

Today we learned a lot. They talked about STD’s - and seriously the stats are staggering. I walk away from each training with my heart so heavy because most people just don’t get it. We talked A LOT about abstinence and counseling our clients to remain abstinent. One of th ladies made a point that even using condoms during sex is not safe because they fail.

Did you know that as the use of condoms goes up the rate of STD’s is even higher than when people weren’t using condoms because back then they were more than likely practicing abstinence? Amazing. People think they are protecting them self from STD’s when they use a condom when in fact they are NOT. Sure the box may say 97% effective, but we have to remember women aren’t 100% of the time fertile. So this 97% effective business ain’t nothing and doesn’t mean you are 97% protected from contracting an STD.

Another thing to think about. Most schools think we should be talking about contraceptives because “kids are going to have sex anyways” but our speaker made a good point - kids ARE NOT using contraceptives, and I agree. Nobody in my circle of friends growing up used contraceptives, no one, and if they did it was NOT on a regular basis. Kids are not protecting them self. The only way we can stop this is to teach abstinence, period.

My brain goes crazy with all this information I am learning. There is so much pain in this world. Going through this training has actually made some of my own hurts and pains resurface, and it sucks! It’s like do I really have to DEAL with this, lol!

Anyways - on another note. Today we went to a pumpkin festival and we took the kiddos, and my oldest daughter took her friend. Well they were in the back seat of the van and were like “this is so weird having someone sit back here with me” and my oldest daughter was like “yeah..it’s just so..so..akward.” LOL! Awkward? She is like so…so…smart and grown up it makes me want to CRY! I love her so much.

Another funny moment was when they were going through there bag of food we were donating to get a free pumpkin, and my daughter was like “yeah we got organic peas, organic green beans, organic pinto beans…” and on and on, it was funny because what was in her bag reflected our pantry. Plus she had to say “organic” which was kind of silly. I guess you had to be there, it was funny…