Today I was looking over a blog that was set up for a homeless person and he said the reason why he is still on the streets is because he lost hope…..

Then today someone posted that most of the time failure happens because people gave up not knowing how close they were to success…..

Today I definitely went to a low point. Wondering why I do any of the things I do and thinking I should just give up. It really was just a day where things started to tumble down on me.

Why am I a stay at home mom? Why am I working my butt off when my husband still has to work two jobs? Is all of this even worth it? Why do I homeschool when my oldest daughter still lies to my face and disrespects my authority? Where is the fruit in all that I do and all that I have sacrificed?

I can certainly guarantee you I have sacrificed SO much and still am very disappointed with the outcome of it all. Not only that but I often feel like I have this big fat “FAIL” sign on my forehead. I wonder if ANYTHING I am doing is truly making a difference anywhere or to anyone.

It feels like no matter how much patience I have, the sacrifices I make, the time I spend, or how nice I am matters to anyone. So I wonder should I be doing something else? Should I just get a job? Put my kids in school? Do whatever I feel like doing?

But I don’t want to give up. I refuse to lose hope. What would happen if I gave up or lost hope? I don’t even want to go there. We can’t give up, we can’t. Giving up would cost me everything. I need to hang onto to hope…

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So the other day I was doing my motherly duties (shopping at Target), and of course the second we walked into the store my lovely 3 year old daughter announces she “has to go potty.”

So we head into the Target restrooms.  Now Let me just point out right now, as soon as I walk into a public restroom – or any other restroom that is not mine, my parents, or my sisters – I become a complete germaphobe, OK?!  I cannot stand public restrooms but when you have to go to the bathroom what can ya do?

Anyways, so I am sitting there waiting for my little Princess to finish her business, and while I am standing there this lady walks out of one of the stalls, walks past the sink, rubs her fingers together, and walks out the door!

I just stood there for a minute thinking to myself “Did she really just do that?” I mean I was shocked she did not wash her hands, but not only that she LOOKED very nice, and clean cut.  So yes, I was a bit surprised she did not wash her hands, and I really think I felt a little bit of vomit creep up into my throat.

But that’s not the funny part, I was just standing there trying to get over the shock of what I just witnessed when my 5 year old Little Man blurts out “She didn’t WASH HER HANDS!” LMBO!

My 5 YEAR OLD son was also in shock with what he just witnessed, and you should have seen his face!  His eyes were all big, and he was almost laughing too.  I just started laughing so hard, and I was like “yes, she should have washed her hands.”

What a crazy day at Target it was, to say the least.

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