You know every time I tell someone we homeschool, we don’t celebrate Halloween, the Easter Bunny doesn’t come to our house, neither does the tooth fairy, or even Santa Clause – they look at me like I have a third eye.
I have to say I don’t like this feeling. It’s like can you PLEASE stop looking at me like I am weird, because I already feel uncomfortable around you simply because I am overweight…and maybe I don’t feel too confident in my looks right now.
I hate talking about Halloween, Christmas, and Easter. My son just lost his first tooth, I hate talking to people about this event because they think we celebrate the tooth fairy. I often wonder if any of it is all worth it. I mean people who are Christians and celebrate these things seem to have happy well adjusted children. Why put ourselves through all this guilt, and weirdness, if there isn’t going to be some type of pay off?
One thing that makes it REALLY uncomfortable is to talk about my beliefs with other Christians, because if I tell them WHY according to the Bible we shouldn’t do these things, they may feel judged by me…which is not my intentions. But just in their looks towards me, I feel judged…
Sometimes I do wish God would just reveal to me the purpose behind all of this, and why I am convicted but not my other Christian friends. Sometimes I just wish I could have peace about it all, and stop feeling GUILTY like I am doing something horrible to my children.
I know I am not. I see how they are, and you know what I am proud of them. Are my kids perfect, no. But they do seem to really appreciate life for what it is, not just looking forward to another event or toy to satisfy them. They seem content.
I know that God is not the one who is making me feel guilt. No, guilt is a tool of the enemy, and he is really good at using it.
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