I don’t ask God “What now?” enough. Often I’m too busy asking myself that very question, but I never think to ask God that question.
“God – What now?”
Seriously I need to stop thinking about the bigger picture – truly! I need to focus on what God has for me right now! Lately I have been feeling like a failure. My husband and I have come up with the conclusion I have failure issues, he has insecurity issues. So, what now?
Yes, January 1, 2010 is creeping up, and the stress of the upcoming year is really starting to freak me out. But you know what really sucks…the closer it gets the more I feel like no one is there for me!
I need prayer, too. My life is going crazy, too. I need a friend, too. But I’m surrounded by people who are having their own issues too, and it’s hard to think about what I’m going through. However I can’t forget that our family is going to NEED others to help us get through next year. So I need to ask “God what now?” Where do I go? Who do I look for?
But when I look at the now – guess what? I have an awesome family who IS there for me – actually we are there for each other because it seems that every single one of us is struggling with something.
My mom asked if I needed anything. She said she was praying for us. I told her that’s ALL I NEEDED – and you know it is. Prayer is what I need right now. I need a friend. I would love to have someone I can talk to. But it’s just not there.
So I just ask God – “what now?” So many things that I thought would be there forever are falling away. What now? I am confident You have a plan, I just can’t see it right now. I wish I could hear you better, God.
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