So many changes are happening in our life right now. Honestly they are all good changes, and all of them show us that God is truly the one who provides for us and is in control of our life.

However for some reason I can see the open doors but I’m not motivated to walk through them. It’s like God is literally showing us the way to go, and yet I am not willing to go there. I can see Him waiting for me and all I can do is look at Him and say “I’m scared.” or “I don’t FEEL like it.”

Can you imagine saying these things to GOD?

I honestly feel like such an idiot. How can I do this. I know that God understands though. He has to understand. Some of the things He wants us to do IS scary, and exhausting, not to mention stressful.

They require some sacrifice too, which I have been struggling with. I’m beginning to realize that this life isn’t just about my enjoyment, and in order to follow God and His will for my life it requires a great deal of sacrifice on my part. It’s called taking up your cross.

You know I often complain that there are too many “no’s” in the Christian faith and I DO struggle with this, but you know when I sit back and think about Jesus and the sacrifice He made for ME and YOU I just simply sit back and shut my mouth.

I don’t think God is trying to throw anything in my face, and I don’t feel like He is annoyed with me. Honestly I see a God who is a bit discouraged. Of course He can see all the beauty that will come from our sacrifice, and I can see it a bit too, however oddly enough that doesn’t motivate me.

What motivates me?

The desire to obey the Lord. I know what life holds when we are disobedient to God and His word. I know what my life was before I knew the Lord. All the blessings in the world will never motivate me more than the sheer desire to serve Him, and the fear I have in the Lord.

Yes, I do fear the Lord and I don’t think that is a bad thing. He is GOD. He can, and one day will, destroy this world for HIS glory and to further HIS kingdom. We can deny this all we want. But GOD is GOD, and I do fear Him. But I also know out of my fear comes obedience, and God offers MANY promises to those who fear Him – in other words those who RESPECT Him and OBEY His word.

I’m not motivated by shiny things, because the shiny things will one day go away. But I am motivated by my fear in the Lord. I respect Him and want to show my respect by obeying His word and moving forward, with His guidance, to the place He wants me to be.

What motivates you?

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I think everyone in this world faces rejection at least once in their life. Unfortunately rejection may even come from your own parents, grandparents, siblings, or even your spouse.

I think all rejection is difficult to accept and can make anyone angry or bitter. When my mom was 6 years old her mom left her and my mom’s three siblings leaving them with my grandpa to raise. I know that a lot of my mom’s siblings are still bitter and angry about what happened even though their mother is now deceased.

For me though I experience rejection through people I wish I could know better. I do experience rejection in other areas of my life, but when it comes to family I am blessed. Is that to say I’ve never experienced rejection from family members, no. But right now I’m glad God has surrounded me with a great family that loves me.

But when it comes to people in my church, or even people I do online business with the rejection is all too often. I think it burns more when it’s people you want to fellowship with. When your fellow “Christian” rejects you, I think the sting is pretty deep. Lately it seems like this is the case – rejection by other Christians.

Sometimes your too Christian, or not enough. It’s sad I think. But my biggest battle with rejection is learning how NOT to grow angry and bitter. I find that my attitude towards those I felt rejected me has been an attitude of “I don’t like her, or her, or her.” and I stick up my nose and go the other way. That’s not me.

Rejection hurts, and whenever it happens I think I really need to ask God for healing. I thought I could get by with my confidence rooted in God and by focusing on all of the people I DO have in my life. But none of that takes away the pain that rejection brings, no matter WHO has rejected you.

So I count my blessings, and praise God for bringing so many great people into my life. But along side this praise I also need to ask God for healing – that I haven’t done yet – but I am now. Lord Jesus please heal these wounds left by rejection. Erase all the bitterness and anger in my heart. Help me to love my enemies. – Amen

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