Today I was looking over a blog that was set up for a homeless person and he said the reason why he is still on the streets is because he lost hope…..
Then today someone posted that most of the time failure happens because people gave up not knowing how close they were to success…..
Today I definitely went to a low point. Wondering why I do any of the things I do and thinking I should just give up. It really was just a day where things started to tumble down on me.
Why am I a stay at home mom? Why am I working my butt off when my husband still has to work two jobs? Is all of this even worth it? Why do I homeschool when my oldest daughter still lies to my face and disrespects my authority? Where is the fruit in all that I do and all that I have sacrificed?
I can certainly guarantee you I have sacrificed SO much and still am very disappointed with the outcome of it all. Not only that but I often feel like I have this big fat “FAIL” sign on my forehead. I wonder if ANYTHING I am doing is truly making a difference anywhere or to anyone.
It feels like no matter how much patience I have, the sacrifices I make, the time I spend, or how nice I am matters to anyone. So I wonder should I be doing something else? Should I just get a job? Put my kids in school? Do whatever I feel like doing?
But I don’t want to give up. I refuse to lose hope. What would happen if I gave up or lost hope? I don’t even want to go there. We can’t give up, we can’t. Giving up would cost me everything. I need to hang onto to hope…
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It’s been some time since you wrote this, and I hope and pray you are in a better frame of mind now. God bless you! Come give us an update…. (((((HUGS))))) sandi
Definitely happy to be back. Just praying about what I should write here.